I don’t know what to say. All I know is that I have more respect for him, than I have in almost everyone I know. He is not in this life to tell everyone his sobb story, he wants nothing like a pity party, he is just looking for Someone to help him overcome this horrible scene he’s been trying to fight. He is looking for someone who cares about him, someone who will make it less difficult to conquer this battle. This person has probably had a harder life than an average person. I saw that he was not the same as usual today, so I asked if he needed to talk. He said no that’s fine, I dont want you to have to deal with my problems. I said I am always here to talk, (past experience, having someone to talk to is always a good feeling when your down). So the night was almost through, everyone left, and I stayed and went for a walk with him, he told me a whole lot, and it made me feel as if he trusted me. He confided in me. I was not much help, but I told him if he ever needed ANYTHING i am always here to talk. I gave him a hug, one that made me tear up. I wanted to just bawl my eyes out, because of the sorrow I have for him. I didn’t want to let go, cause there was nothing I could do to help him. Then the most inspirational thing he said, after the whole thing was, ‘the thing that keeps me going, is that I keep telling myself it could be worse’ I honestly couldn’t imagine what he is going through, let alone thinking that It could be worse. I just hope that I made him feel like he doesn’t have to feel alone, he will always have me here to talk to.

The sad part is, he hides it so well, that no one realizes what he’s going, and had gone through. To all of the people who say/have said anything about him, how dare you is all I can say…. Keep your head up boy, I’ll be praying for you

I want people to like me, I want to just feel wanted for once, I don’t know how to handle any of this anymore, it just hurts so bad that I don’t even know what to do with myself. I don’t want to be like a lot of people, and make a big scene out of it, I just want to be noticed, noticed as something besides the bigger girl. I want to be like my friends, but I just can’t fit in, i just need to find myself… And I feel like I’ve searched everywhere, and got nowheres, I’m so confused with life, that I wonder where I am, why I am here, why this is happening to me, what my life will be like, will it get better? I just have so many unanswered questions… And no one to help me through it.

It really hurts… I try to be the best person I can be, and I get told that I’m fake. I by no means try to ever be fake. I try to be as honest, and as happy as I can be. It just hurts to hear one of my old best friends tell me I’m fake… :/ it has really hurt me, am i?

I am not like everyone else, I have not had what they all have had. I have Bad days, and come home to overcome them on my own. I don’t have someone there for me, someone to call me beautiful every day, or someone to cuddle with on a rainy day. I don’t have someone to make me happy, to make me feel better. Even though it would be awesome to have someone, I feel like I’m still not ready, even though I want it so bad. I want to have someone who is not just a friend, someone who I can have as mine, and I will hold onto him forever. Reciting it in my head all the time all of the things I would do if I had a boyfriend. I guess this only makes me stronger, and more prepared for what is to come in the future. But, I have realized now that I don’t need to have someone to make me happy, for once I see the world in a different view. Things will happen when the time is right